Alone

You’re at a party, talking to your friends and feeling comfortably at first. But at some point, rather then enjoying yourself, it starts to feel like that something is missing. The conversations you’re having going a way you know. Not that you can say what there are going say exactly or what words are going to used, but you know the refrain, just like a pop song. Like any pop song. Words slip through, the voices soften.

An odd feeling kicks in and while you’re surrounded by friends and family a feeling of hollowness arises. Everything seems pointless, every words seems empty. Nothing matters any more. You’re alone. Alone in the middle of everyone, why? How? You mind can’t answer, you mind does not know why and all what you’ve having is boredom.

The voices fades away, everyone is absorbed by themself. You have no role to play, you’re outside. Left behind. You’re left alone. You want to belong to the other, you want to be seen. But instead of expression your wishes, thought, you play alone with the refrain. Like everyone else.

You don’t ask the questions you want to, you do not ask for what’s the matter. Until it is over and you leave as empty as you have come. Spend time of your life for…? No one can tell you, no one knows.